I. She Bathed in Plasma at Honey Time
It wasn’t blood,
though it looked like blood.
Plasma—
the clear pink veil
left after the clot.
She said it felt like light
if light could burn
and heal at once.
No one told her to.
She stepped into the basin
as the sun was leaving.
Honey time,
they called it—
that hour between
gold and absence.
She wasn’t trying
to be clean.
She wanted the membrane.
The thin slick between
wound and air.
She wanted the sting.
You could say
it was erotic.
You could say
it was grief.
Both would be true.
Afterward,
she lay in the grass
smelling of metal
and bees.
They came to her.
The insects.
The hungry things.
Drawn by something
sweeter than salt.
She did not flinch.
Not once.
She knew what she was offering.
And what it would cost
to feel real.
II. The Aftertaste Ritual
There’s a reason
we wait.
You must not speak
too soon
after the bath.
You must let it settle—
the sweetness
and the heat.
For hours
she sat still,
tongue pressed
to the roof of her mouth,
holding the taste
like a secret.
It was sharp at first.
Then velvet.
Then nothing.
That’s how it works.
The gods take flavor
before they take flesh.
They want your senses
emptied.
They want the mouth
made sacred
by restraint.
Later she would sing.
Later she would open
her jaw to the wind
and let it comb her
like an animal.
But first—
the quiet.
The awful richness
held in silence.
This is what they don’t teach:
how pleasure must be borne
like a wound
before it becomes
a gift.
III. Her Bees Returned with Teeth
They didn’t sting.
They bit.
That was the first change.
Small, deliberate wounds.
Not defense—
hunger.
She had fed them once
from her own sap.
They remembered.
Their wings buzzed
low in the orchard,
marking her return.
She stood very still
as they climbed
her arms
like nerves in revolt.
No pain—
just the ache
of recognition.
One sank its mouth
into her wrist.
Another, her neck.
Tiny mouths.
So precise.
She said:
Take it,
whatever remains.
I’ve already been emptied
by sweetness.
The trees nodded,
as trees do,
when no one
is watching.
And afterward—
her skin shimmered
with holes
no mirror could see.
Only the wind
found them.
And sang through
what was once
whole.
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